A Time to Rant...

More often than not, rants aren't justified. They're usually written in the midst of a really bad situation, and the ranter feels that the rant will help his situation. However, sometimes, rants are justified, like when things really do suck, and they seem to want to keep sucking, and there's no hope whatsoever of the sucking ever to end. That is my story. My life sucks, at this point, and my life just wants to keep on sucking, and there seems to be no hope whatsoever of it ever ceasing to suck. Here's why:
Since the last time we met, I managed to, after much tribulation (more on that later, like, tomorrow, or something), move me and my stuff up to Undisclosed Location* to attend Undisclosed College**. Well, upon arriving at Undisclosed Location, I've come to find my living situation a lot less desireable than I'd hoped. I have never felt so weird in my life. Just being here, in this apartment, makes me feel like the worst person in the world, and I can't quite figure out why. I'm constantly being introduced to new people, whose names I instantly forget, and everything (yes, everything) that comes out of my mouth sounds like I'm fluent in Moron. Also, I've come to understand what the Pennsylvanian Dutch feel like, cause we have no TV. While, to some, this is no big deal, but to the Lost/VM/GG addict, this can be a very very very dire situation, indeed. And the worst part? I don't feel like my roommates even WANT a TV!!! I feel like, if I bring that "cursed" box into these holy walls, that I'll be eternally scorned. Condemnation doesn't look good on your transcript, I'll tell you what! So, all in all, this has proved a dire situation indeed. I need solace. I need release. I need TV. I feel trapped in my bedroom, ashamed to show my sinful head in the front room. I just feel terrible here. I don't feel good. Its a very bad feeling. Really, it is. And, on top of all of this, I've managed to lose my key to the apartment, so I'm stuck. I wanted to check out a movie tonight down at the local cheap seats theater, but noooooo! I'm not guaranteed to be let in cause everyone's asleep by 11:30!!! I can't live like this. Honestly, and this is saying a lot, I almost prefer my last roommates...Whoa, I know, but at least they left me alone, and I didn't feel like the Prince of Darkness around them (well, that's probably because they were doing worse things than I was). So, I pray, in the next couple of days, things begin to change for the better, but I'm not holding my breath on that one.
I miss Veronica...*sniff*
Okay, so in order to balance the obvious negativty in this post, I will proceed to introduce this weeks Song and Movie of the Week. Here we go!

Song of the Week (Aug. 29th, 2005)
Nickel Creek's Doubting Thomas

Okay, I'm a sucker for a song that contains Biblical allusions (I mean, who doesn't love Rufus Wainwright's Hallelujah?), and this song has one that moves throughout the song, and judging from the title of the song, I'm sure you can figure out which that is. The cryptic lyrics (a Nickel Creek staple) speak of a man who is doubting the things he's come to believe in. Now, I read this two different ways: One, is obviously religious, considering the allusions, and the other is love related. Combined with a simple and yet bittersweet melody (take a listen here), it creates musical magic, and it evokes strong emotions from me each and every time I listen. Here are the lyrics for your reading pleasure.

what will be left when i've drawn my last breath,
besides the folks i've met and the folks who know me,
will i discover a soul cleansing love,
or just the dirt above and below me,

i'm a doubting thomas,
i took a promise,
but i don't know what's safe,
oh me of little faith,

sometimes i pray for a slap in the face,
then i beg to be spared 'cause i'm a coward,
if there's a master of death i'll bet he's holding his breath,
as i show the blind and tell the deaf about his power,

i'm a doubting thomas,
i can't keep my promises,
'cause i don't know what's safe,
oh me of little faith

i'm a doubting thomas,
i can't keep my promises,
'cause i don't know what's safe,
oh me of little faith,

can i be used to help others find truth,
when i'm scared i'll find proof that its a lie,
can i be lead down a trail dropping
bread crumbs,
that prove i'm not ready to die,

please give me time to decipher the signs,
please forgive me for time that i've wasted,

i'm a doubting thomas,
i'll take your promise,
though i know nothin's safe,
oh me of little faith

Honorable Mention
Nickel Creek's Why Should The Fire Die?
This is the title track of their album, and it's one that has proven to never escape my head, which is why I'm giving it honorable mention. I love the idea behind it, and especially the line "Why should the fire die? My mom and dad kept theirs alive" I don't know. There's just something cool and evokative about that line. Neato torpedo.

Movie of the Week (Aug. 29th, 2005)
Doug Liman's Mr. and Mrs. Smith

Okay, so this is not quite in the same league as Spellbound but it is worth mentioning (and also cause it's officially the only movie I've seen this week, so it works). The film is very entertaining, with some expected turns and what not, but funny when it needs to be, and a bit touching at some parts. I was surprised at some moments, mostly because I did expect something a bit more formulaic. Enjoyable to the last frame, with some pretty cool action sequences. Angelina Jolie, despite being a certified nut job in real life, is an amazing specimen of a woman, no doubt about that. However, on a sad note, my heterosexual man-crush on Brad Pitt has officially come to an end. I no longer want to be him, like I used to, and I realized this sadly as I watched the movie, and remembered that he was with Angelina now, who despite being an amazing specimen of a woman, is a certified nut job in real life, and not with my beloved Rache..I mean, Jennifer Aniston. Anyway, all women aside, this movie entertained me, which is all it set out to do. See it if you have the chance. It's tons 'o fun! 7.9/10

Okay, that is all...Take care, my little ones, and enjoy your dreamless nights! I'm gonna watch Les Visiteurs! ;)

ciao
parker

*This is undisclosed for fear of offending those who have a great affinity for these various locales. I will repeatedly bash them in a loving, yet sarcastic manner, so keeping it unknown just helps me not feel so bad about what I say concerning it. Trust me on this, and if you don't believe me, just come here to visit, and you'll understand why I just prefer not to tell people where I am. It's just sad.
**Ditto to the above...